Monday, June 11, 2012

Who I am

The past 11 months have changed me!!  Being mom to Esther Wynn has brought me to my knees many times; I've cried tears of joy, frustration over selfishness and in gratitude to our maker for giving Josh and I such an undeserved gift!!  I am wife to Josh, Mom to Esther, Daughter to my parents, Sister to my siblings, Friend, Small group leader, Mentor and a child of God.  I was reminded yesterday that I often forget who I am to the Lord.  I forget that he knit me together and in His eyes I am perfectly and wonderfully made.  I forget God is the potter and I am His clay, being the Work of His hands.  Being His daughter is who I need to claim to be first and foremost.  I want Esther to know she is the Lord's, perfectly and wonderfully made!!!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

God's Provsion

I am in awe of the Lord today!!  I should be everyday, but today He has made himself known in a way that was so unexpected.  As many of you know my sister, Lindsay, returned home from serving in Africa due to an unknown illness.  The illness landed her in the hospital for two weeks; most of her time being spent in the ICU.  While she was in Africa her insurance became inactive, so she was left with medical bills around $90k.  My mom and Lindsay have been working with a charity organization hoping to get some assistance with the bills. They found out today that the organization approved covering ALL of her medical bills!!!  PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012


Friendships are challenging and oh so rewarding!  With each new season of life friendships are constantly changing.  When entering a marriage it seems as though couples shift to spending time with other couples, often leaving single friends by the wayside.  The same happens when you embark upon parenthood; you choose to surround yourself with other parents, people who can commiserate with you over the sleepless nights, loads of laundry and subpar meals for your family.  In entering parenthood I thought being with other mom friends would be simple; we would have play groups and talk over a cup of coffee while our children played.  It doesn't seem to have worked out that way.  When I was in college my mom said something to me that has really stuck with me.  At the time I had a friendship that was really challenging, suck you of all your energy challenging.  I remember being emotionally spent and not knowing what to do.  In talking with my mom about the situation, she told me "You need to CHOOSE what kind of friend you are going to be and stick with it regardless of what you get in return.  You never know when the tables will turn and you will need that friend."  Right now I am wrestling with my mom's words.  I have a friendship that means the world to me, one in which desiring to invest time is easy, but I have found the reality of what I am able to give is a disappointment to what my heart desires to give.  Life has gotten in the way of me being able to be the friend that I CHOSE to be.  Play dates and coffee haven't fit into all that life demands.  I have hurt my friend because I have failed to be the friend she is needing.  It hurts because my heart is there; it wants to pour into her, but family, work, being a wife and all the other commitments of life aren't permitting me to.  It hurts to come to the realization that desires and expectations aren't aligning with reality.  It hurts because she is hurt and I am to blame.

Friday, April 13, 2012


This week has been way to serious and difficult, so Esther and I put on some mustaches to lighten the mood.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

9 Months

Seriously, where have the last 9 months gone.  I really can't believe Esther is 9 months already.  She is such a ham and a joy!  She loves crawling around and getting into anything that is within her reach.  Her second tooth finally cut through; I am SO glad I don't remember teething.  She has been so uncomfortable the past couple of weeks but seems to have taken a turn for the better since the tooth made its appearance.  She is pulling herself up and cruising around the furniture.  Still no words but she does like to repeat the same sounds over and over again.  I just love hearing her little voice.  Here are a few photos of the past couple months.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Workday Wednesday

My friend, Stacy, just spruced up the sconces at her home so I was inspired to do the same.  It is amazing what a difference some spray paint and a new piece of glass can make.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Sunday, February 5, 2012


The weather for the past few weeks has been amazing so we have taken every chance we get to be outside.  Here are some pics from our most recent hike as a family and one with my dad.


Esther started eating solids a few weeks ago.  I don't know why, but I was a little nervous about giving her food.  I  was afraid she would have an allergic reaction and I wouldn't know what to do.  I bought a book on cooking organic for your baby and I received a baby bullet for Christmas which came with a cook book as well.  I decided to start Esther with Sweet Potatoes and she LOVED them.  She would cry when she finished her portion; it was pretty pathetic.  After sweet potatoes we tried carrots, which were also a hit, and rice cereal.  Esther hated the rice.  She was so disgusted by it.  It is amazing to me that she was able to let me know, very clearly, that she wanted nothing to do with the rice cereal.  Enjoy the pictures and video of Esther eating. :)

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

6 Months Old

How is Esther 6 months old already?  I still can't believe it.  She is such a sweet, easy going baby!!  She loves rolling around the living room, has been sitting on her own for about a month now and really enjoys jumping in her jumperoo.  We are so thankful for our sweet little girl!!

Esther's 1st Christmas

I can't believe Christmas has already come and gone.  It was a busy season, but we were glad to have so much time with family.  Esther seemed pretty oblivious to all that was going on, but she sure loved the attention that she received from all her cousins, aunts and uncles.

Brothers and their babies

 6 of the 10 grandkids on Josh's side with Nana, Pappy and Great Grandpa Bob
 Christmas morning.  No Christmas pj's because she pooped in them.

 Daddy helping Esther open her gifts